Serving in the PC is an emotion roller-coaster. Here is an example of my feelings and thoughts during a typical weekday.
5:30 am – Tired: I wish my family wasn’t so loud getting ready for work and school.
6:00 am – Screw it: I’m not that tired, so I might as well get up. I have to pee anyway.
6:15 am – Yay: The morning is cool and the sky is gorgeous.
6:16 am – Pumped: I’m so productive when I start the day this early.
7:00 am – Reflective: Well, this coffee with bread is actually pretty good considering I didn’t like either before coming to Paraguay.
7:15 am – Relieved: Writing it all down in a journal makes it easier. I don’t know when I’ll be able to talk to someone about it anyway.
7:30 am – Excited: I’ll get to work early today. It’s going to be a good day.
8:00 am – Cared for: The people at the health post are awesome.
12:00 pm – Starving: I’m starving and really need to pee. How do Paraguayans drink so much terere and never need to use the bathroom?
12:30 pm – Reluctant: Just eat it. I should be thankful someone made me lunch…
1:00 pm – This sucks: It’s sort of hot and now I don’t know what I want to do or what I should do.
1:30 pm – Bored: Fine, fine, I’ll study Guarani…maybe I’ll read instead.
3:00 pm – Escape: I got to get out of here. It’s clearly time for a walk, run, or trip to the grocery store.
4:00 pm – Missing people: Is anyone in the states online? What are my g-mates doing?
4:15 pm – Grr: Of course no one is online; it’s still during the work hours.
5:00 pm – Satisfied: Most of my Paraguayan family is home. We are drinking terere, and I actually know what they are talking about (mostly)!
5:45 pm – Frustrated: I’m never going to learn Guarani. Why did my host brother have to ask me a question in Guarani so fast?
6:00 pm – Hungry but it’s okay: I don’t think we are having dinner for a while still. But, I feel so integrated and connected sitting here drinking terere.
7:00 pm – Greasy: Tortillas, so good at first, so bad later.
7:30 pm – Indecisive: Do I want to watch TV with my family, work on my novel, study, read, or plan charlas? …Is there another option?
8:00 pm – Calm: Watching this soccer game is engaging enough, and they are calling the game in just Spanish so that’s nice.
8:30 pm – Awkward: Everyone in my Paraguayan family is falling asleep and the TV is in their room. Looks like I should go to my room.
8:45 pm – Not tired: Now what?
9:30 pm – Doubtful: I think I’ve been productive today. I feel like I’m not doing enough.
10:00 pm – Defensive: Stop putting yourself down, you’re doing just what you should be doing.
10:01 pm – Sleepy: On that note, let’s go to bed shall we?
10:30 pm – Awake: Why am I still awake?